BANNED substance in apricot kernels could kill cancer cells?

It's not conventional? It's not mainstream? It's rocking the boat? Ban it! That seems like the order of the world lately. Personally, I find it abusive, a form of exercising power to control humanity and its community. A ban put onto a society not only cripples it. It forces people to rethink the powers bequeathed onto lawmakers. The very people voted in by a society. The very same ones who owe a duty of care to its community. It's time for us to think, and rethink the powers we offer others. Sometimes, we fail to think. We're worried about mortgages, car loans and the day to day affairs. And it is those times when we are most vulnerable.

I spent the afternoon with a friend who shared that the past 6 months had been most harrowing. It started when she decided on her birthday, she would go for a full medic check. Stunned she was, that afternoon when the clinic told her point blank that she had stage 3 breast cancer and it was best for her to return in two days and she was lucky because there was an available slot for immediate surgery. Now, I'm not a medical expert, nor am I a skeptic. I am, however, a believer of healing through eating the right foods and feeling the right energies.

And today, I learn about the wonders of a simple simple thing - B-17. I'm writing this today to share what I know on this apparent cancer cure. However, some reports are showing that it leads to cyanide poisoning. I realise that a lot of research needs to be done on this, so this does not serve as an advice. It's ONLY information for sharing and learning. 

• http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread201313/pg1
• http://www.alignlife.com/articles/cancer/Apricot_Seed_Kernels_Cure_Cancer.html
• http://www.theage.com.au/victoria/raw-apricot-kernels-being-sold-as-cancer-cure-despite-cyanide-warnings-20111119-1noju.html?gclid=CNXD19LJ6KwCFciBpAod2Sjanw
• http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1fumAO0t0k&feature=related
• http://www.smh.com.au/national/health/apricot-kernels-for-sale-but-beware-seed-limit-20111119-1noc1.html

Please share what you know about this so we can all unravel the mysteries of B17.

Seks Merdeka? Seks almari!

Hard hats, helmets, put it all on your head and stride forth with pride this November 2011 as we celebrate Seksualiti Merdeka - the now banned human rights festival http://www.seksualitimerdeka.org/. During my university days in Sydney, I volunteered as a safe sex advocate, manning booths, handing out safe sex kits to the public. My personal emancipation seemed so long ago and this week's events has jolted me to a abrupt halt. Freedom to be oneself is so very important.

Last night, I was at a Burmese Refugee fundraiser and film screening. That same night, it poured and rained, leaving KL musty, dank with an occasional cool breeze sweeping in from the riverside. At around 7.30pm, my friend Pang runs down and asks for a hug. I randomly introduce him to Jan Drew and Asha Gill - both preparing for the kick start of the fundraiser. Pang tells me the festival he co-founded has been banned, and that they have to disrupt their workshop upstairs. I gave him a tight hug. Minutes later, dozens of policemen in their navy blue uniforms suddenly flooded CM Annexe unbeknownst to many of our guests at the cafe who were absorbed watching the screening of documentary - HOME by Desiree Lim. HOME is about a Burmese refugee's search for a little piece of freedom while in Malaysia. How ironic!

Freedom. Let's hear it from George Michael.



Freedom '90
George Michael

I won't let you down
I will not give you up
Gotta have some faith in the sound
It's the one good thing that I've got
I won't let you down
So please don't give me up
Because I would really, really love to stick around

Heaven knows I was just a young boy
Didn't know what I wanted to be
I was every little hungry schoolgirl's pride and joy
And I guess it was enough for me
To win the race? A prettier face!
Brand new clothes and a big fat place
On your rock and roll TV
But today the way I play the game is not the same
No way
Think I'm gonna get me some happy

I think there's something you should know
I think it's time I told you so
There's something deep inside of me
There's someone else I've got to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Take back your singing in the rain
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

All we have to do now
Is take these lies and make them true somehow
All we have to see
Is that I don't belong to you
And you don't belong to me
Freedom
You've gotta give for what you take
Freedom
You've gotta give for what you take

Heaven knows we sure had some fun boy
What a kick just a buddy and me
We had every big shot good-time band on the run boy
We were living in a fantasy
We won the race
Got out of the place
I went back home got a brand new face
For the boys on MTV
But today the way I play the game has got to change
Oh yeah
Now I'm gonna get myself happy

I think there's something you should know
I think it's time I stopped the show
There's something deep inside of me
There's someone I forgot to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Don't think that I'll be back again
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

All we have to do now
Is take these lies and make them true somehow
All we have to see
Is that I don't belong to you
And you don't belong to me
Freedom
You've gotta give for what you take
Freedom
You've gotta give for what you take

Well it looks like the road to heaven
But it feels like the road to hell
When I knew which side my bread was buttered
I took the knife as well
Posing for another picture
Everybody's got to sell
But when you shake your ass
They notice fast
And some mistakes were built to last

That's what you get

I say that's what you get

That's what you get for changing your mind

And after all this time
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes
Do not make the man

I'll hold on to my freedom
May not be what you want from me
Just the way it's got to be
Lose the face now
I've got to live 

Stopping MIND MOVEMENT

My Dad sat me down and told me a tale about this one particular family.

Father, Mother, Son & Daughter lived in a remote village and worked the paddy fields for a living. They would wake and leave their humble house before the crack of dawn and make their way to the fields. One day, Mother asked Father if he could pluck 2 mangoes for her as she'd like to eat it after lunch that day. So Father and Son hunted for a long stick, then Son climbed on Father's back and together, spent some time to try to knock the mango off the tree. Soon, they went along their path again. This repeated thrice as Father and Son stopped to catch a plump farm chicken and river frogs for the next day's dinner.

It was already hot midday by the time they arrived at the fields. Many other families were already there working since dawn and there was hardly any more rice to be harvested. They worked under the hot sun and missed their lunch break. While the other families were eating under the shady trees, Father, Mother, Son and Daughter worked the fields - hungry, tired and regretting their earlier morning romp.

I often chide my Dad and tell him that this story is actually about our family. Why do we have so many gazillion ideas between father and daughter? Why is it that our minds just cannot STOP. We are constantly thinking and hatching up ideas. It's like breathing air. Except these days, today in particular, the haze is rather unpleasant. So no ideas today!

Today, I consciously stop my mind from moving and thinking too much. I will just be. In future, it doesn't need the haze to remind me to stop. In future, I will make it a point to STOP before I GO at least once a week. Unnecessary mind movement can be distracting and is motivated usually by survival. The need to survive, to make money, to bide time, to leave a legacy. So stop. It's alright to do so once in awhile.

Intention does NOT equate Execution - whomever said 'It's the thought that counts', you're wrong...

Last night, it hit me. I'm so full of intention. So much desire. So many ideas. All of that outweigh the amount of things I'm able to execute in one day. So I need some trimming here... please help! I need to trim my thoughts, my waist line, my hair! Trim trim trim!

"Dream"

This is Chinese for 'DREAM'. It's good to dream. For when we dream, we free our thoughts from shackles of reality. But at the same time, when we're too full of intention without action, the thought alone cannot free us. I drew a little diagram today and shared it with two persons. They agreed with me. Each day these days, we prepare proposals (intention) and send it via email to prospects. That alone, is insufficient action to warrant positive feedback. So what do we do? We follow up with some phone calls, meetings, research, discussions (action).

I've been thinking and wanting to run a cafe since I graduated from Uni. I can't explain why I have this desire. But for the longest time, I've thought about it. Yet, I haven't done anything towards this dream except dream. I'm the type of person who would ponder on something for a long long time before taking action. And I will take action once I'm certain that it is what I want.

Persistence of Memory by Salvador Dali

It's the thought that counts. 
Is that thought so wrong? 

Last week when I visited my business coach, he ticked me off (finally!!) for being late. I was 10 minutes late! Last month, I would show up 30 minutes late, month before 45 minutes late. He had every right. And I hated the feeling of being late. I vowed never to be late again for him. Or for anyone else. It's hard though, to keep that commitment. The intention was there. I even woke up an hour earlier to ensure I'd get there on time. How come then, was I late? I'm baffled too.


I will not be late. I will see through my intentions.

If I think of someone I care for, and think of buying them a gift. Is that sufficient? I love gifts. Thinking about buying someone a gift and actually doing it, are two different things. Once the thought is acted on, the intention becomes real. And the receiving party is aware of the initial thought.


So give a gift. Call that person you thought of in the morning. Say sorry for being late. Go for that sabbatical you so need. Do things but weigh it out first. Trim your life. Focus. Let's live the best we can!

Visualising data

Picture this. #66000 or #131313. I learnt about these colour codes for html programming in 2000. We live within so MUCH data... Gigas, Terras and now sometimes i wonder how many packets of data lie between me and the front door. Did you know... 1 terabyte (TB) equals 1000,000,000,000bytes. Here's a video to share on how one man has visualised data. Too cool for school!

Sanctum: a holy place within

I watched Sanctum last night, a James Cameron and Andrew Wight collaboration and absolutely loved it. It was a very painful movie to watch. Dramatic. Heroic. Values. That was what came out for me. Values.

Just like Titanic or any other disaster movie, it's when the human being is desperate and has nothing left but just life before him that his values take centrestage. It's the fight or flight theory. When in times of trouble, do you take flight or do you fight for your life? In Titanic, do you remember the scene where women and children were given first priority aboard the life rafts? Then there were a few men who had crept on board, fearful for their lives. Fear cripples us. It turns us into monsters.

Learnings from Sanctum the movie? Never let fear take over. Never give up. Be level headed in whatever situation and know that you'll get through it. Once we fear doom, we ARE doomed. And I'm able to share this because I've gone through it and still climbing out of that doom hole. It's easier to just let go and let that black hole suck you in. It's harder to fight. But when you fight and WIN, every single moment becomes real and that, if LIVING. So this post is dedicated to those of you fighting yourselves. We're our own worst enemies. Get over that moment and fight. And that's when you start living life. Hugs!

Here are some of my favourite and most inspirational movies about living LIFE. Enjoy...

LE GRAND BLEU 1988 by Luc Besson: A movie about a free diver who followed his instincts and his heart. Inspired by true life stories of free divers in the world - French Jacques Mayol and Italian Enzo.


SANCTUM 2011: To me, this movie is about being true to yourself. And nothing's more beautiful than father son communication and love. View Trailer:

Reading words as opposed to reading from the heart

I write. And sometimes I read. Some call it poetry. I call it fact laced with fiction, delivered with emotion... from the heart. Mine. Today, I'd like to share with you something, which touched me deeply.