I've
felt like a failure many times. More times than when I feel like a
winner. You see, it started when I was in school and one of the
teachers, mrs. Fernandes, told me that my dance move was stupid. Well,
that's how I remember it anyway. I insisted it wasn't and included it in
the choreography anyway. She was the first bully I ever encountered.
And I went home and cried secretly. Nobody had ever told me that i was
stupid before, but this teacher did.
The
dance was done to hit song, 'Walk like an Egyptian' by Bananarama. It
was infectious and I wore my mum's v-striped black and silver disco
number, had a tennis sweatband over my brow, and was ready to dance my
way to stardom in that hall full of sweaty teenagers for our annual
school concert. I felt like I pwned her that night, dancing to my own
steps, the very steps she had commented as stupid.
I
was born 7-days late, with too much hair on my head to the horror of
the nurses! So, as a result, the Aquarian was subdued while the Piscean
let loose. I've felt all my life that I was a winner. Only now, I fear
that I've just been chasing an elusive dream.
I'm
a winner when it comes to understanding relationships. But a failure
when it comes to sustaining one. So that has inevitably pushed me
towards doing more research into failings.
My journey begins...
